it's only now that i realized how stupid i was when i deleted my blogs.. i have updated that blog for more than 9 months.. and i just deleted it for what i see now as nonsense reason.. my life was there.. the story of my life for that long was all in there.. my feelings for all the things that happened.. my happy times.. my cries.. my anger.. my confusion.. all those were kept for remembrance.. all those were worth to be remembered and kept intact somewhere close.. in my heart.. because of a non sense reason.. all those were gone.. maybe not in my mind and heart.. but somehow.. something of me was missing..


things have changed.. so did people.. now i believe that nothing in life is constant except for change..


there's a contest fro math on saturday.,. and they're asking me i f i wanna join.. its gonna be in san jose state university.. i wanna join but iono.. something stops me.. something inside me is saying no.. iono.. me confused..

eastridge
i slept at 3 am and woke up at 8 am.. i was waiting for people to go online.. but they didn't.. i hecka need to talk to someone because i couldn't sleep..





anyweiz..



today was so much fun.. i swear.. i went out at around 11 am to pick up justin and rhea-lynn then went straight to eastridge.. so we were hanging out.. finding places to go to.. then diana and adrian came.. and they were wearing green.. i was too.. and justin too i think.. so rhea-lynn was off..lol.. so then a lot others came.. irene, andrew, roy, louisse, nikko, ate giselle, gail, armily and razel.. so yeah.. the guys except nikko went somewhere else.. and the rest except ate giselle and gail went barnes & nobles.. diana bought the book A Child Called It.. and we were all like.. may we pass it around.. we wanna read it too!:D and others were like trying to spoil the story..lol..:Dso yeah.. we met to watch the movies.. we watched Bridge To Terabithia and it was okay.. some of us was laughing, some were scared for some reason.. andrew said it was because of the giant.. some cried..so yeah.. then we went out and took hecka pictures.. we had like 6 cameras.. so we had to send to everyone the photos.. i haven't received from diana and armily yet.. so hafta wait for em.. coz we were like.. "don't forget to bring your camera.. MYSPACE PHOTO!" lol.. then we had to leave.. we were supposed to take the bus but roy had a ride so we went with him.. the van was full.. we were like 8 in there.. we stayed in his house til like 9 pm.. rhealynn and justin had to go though..so yeah..:D it was much fun.. can't wait to hang out with them again..:D

tired
yesterday i went malling with rochelle and rachel.. we watched ghost rider and took pictures.. so yeah.. today.. imma go armily's place.. and on friday.. malling with the whole binhi.. weeee!:D




imma get my braces soon:D

fun!
fun started since last night.. we had our weekly meeting and i was surprised that a lot came.. coz for a few weeks.. there were only like 10, 12 of us.. last night had been so fun.. kuya marlowe gave us a ride home.. it was a real joyride.. and he was so makulit.. but i hafta be nice..lol:D he's older..


fun stuff today started when we had to clean the chapel.. irene and i went together.. then didn't know what to do.. then again.. kuya marlowe came.. so we were cleaning together.. then we saw diana.. so it was us 4 cleaning.. tripping.. and enjoying.. it was one of those bonding moments.. it was hecka fun.. that was 10 am to like past 11 am.. then a lot more of the binhis came.. ate giselle! rhea-lynn! so yeah.. it was super doooper oveeer fun!:D even the worst places that we cleaned made us all bonded.. and no matter what it was.. it was so fun.. i don't usually clean.. but earlier.. i don't wanna go home at all..


continued......... we had to be ushers for tonight's thing at church.. it was the bestest thing that i ever did this week or month or whatever.. and i so wanna do it again.. and i hope we do.. i love you guys so much..good job everyone:D


the thing that made my day was when dahlia called me!.. i just got up from bed and poof.. my phone was vibrating and it was them.. they made me cry.. i hecka miss all of them.. i was so touched that even it was prom night.. they found a place and time.. to get out of the room and call me.. i love you guys so much!:D i have a week off next week.. so imma make good use of it and talk to you guys:D


i love ate giselle! she was one of the few people that i met that when they talk about serious things.. they talk straight to my heart.. and when she talk about funny stuff.. it'll make us laugh.. she has always something to say to inspire us.. or somehting to teach us a lesson.. she has all sorts of stories to let us realize how lucky we are.. and that we should value everything that we have especialy having all our duties.. she's always there to comfort us.. no matter it is.. she's not afraid to cry in front of a crowd.. she has a good heart.. she never let us down.. even how sick she is.. she'll be there to lead us.. just to not leave us in the dark.. i love you ate!.. and i may not say this to you often.. but we're all proud of you.. and i hope you wouldn't leave binhi anymore!


YOU JUST DON'T KNOW HOW HAPPY YOU MADE ME.. I HOPE THERE'LL BE A LOT MORE.. :D I CAN'T STOP SMILING..:D

me back
i already deleted my old blog.. but i hope this one will be permanent now.. :D


things have happened.. that i have to erase all my blogs.. i'll not elaborAte more on it.. but that's pretty sad..


i'm kinda fine now.. after everything that happened between my parents and i.. they got so mad at me.. that they wouldn't talk to me at all.. not care and it felt like i was invisible.. well.. my mom and i are back to normal.. and at least i know why she got mad.. but my dad.. i think he's still kinda mad.. and it sucks that he doesn't even wanna talk to me about it.. well i apologized without even knowing what i did wrong..


those times i felt miserable and lost.. that i don't wanna go home.. last friday i stayed hella late at church.. up to like 10pm.. then saturday.. i was with my friends up to like 5pm.. and went to ate giselle's place afterwards.. sunday.. i was with ann.. left home at 10am.. went home at 6pm.. yeah.. i think if there was a chance for me not to go home.. i'll do it.. haiz..


i was a very long week.. lots of homeworks.. projects due.. and tests..


valentine's day sucks.. that was like the worst valentine's day i ever had.. first i wasn't with my friends.. still got lots of work to do for school.. lots of things to fix in my life.. haiz.. and i don't have a special someone:( lol.. jut kiddin:D




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